I don't know what I want from my life. It's all just too difficult.

I hate this world we live in. I just feel like I don't belong in here. I wish I could've lived when there weren't so many choices to make. Am I just too stupid for this life? Not being able to make decisions, not being able to control myself. I just hate it.

I do not understand why I can't leave. It is really simple, the reason. I don't like this world, I have nothing to do here. If I could just die, maybe it would erase me completely off this earth. I am curious and curiosity is what killed the cat. I want to know what happens when you die.

And I want to know it now.